New sister in stress
Never dealt with your pain
Return to sanity
Once again

You need not keep
the things of the past
For if you do
Your future wont last.

Love and honor
you owe them at least
Your mother and father
a home of ease

If you need help
All you need is ask
I am here
And up for the task.

I cry for you
I cry for your enabler
I cry all the time
I wish you were stable

ego

Ego: when I research the word, this is what I come up with, "self, importance of self, how the mind sees self in the world, the part of the personality that mediates between the alert mind and the mind that sleeps, the enduring and conscious element that knows experience".

With these definitions I can see how some have little ego and some have great egos. I can also see how some might have an over blown ego. Lets look at this from a scientific stand point in dealing with personality disorders and what we know about them.

Someone with low self esteem seems to have little ego because of self worth. Those with high self esteem, seem to have great ego which is considered to be healthy as long as it doesn't cause neglect to anyone or anything around them.

Someone who has low self esteem who is delusional in thinking they know more than they actually do, thinks this way as a survival skill. The balance is so far off, the pendulum has had to swing to counter act an event or series of events in a persons life to cause them to go into survival mode.

I cant help but somehow feel pity for these people as they wreak havoc on the earth. I feel worse for the people they tend to lash out at. These ego filled people are ruthless in their fight to maintain the ego that allows them to be strong and healthy in their minds. They don't see the damage they cause. They do not care about the damage. They only care about survival.

Looking at it this way, I can see that some of them kill. Some of them are abusers. Some are the know it all types who dismiss all others. Some are so filled with self, there is no room for anyone else in their lives. Some attack anyone within arms length of presenting the truth to them. They do harm others on a regular basis. I see it every day. The only way I can see to balance my own ego against them, is to ignore them. For every time they say how important they are, I live my life as if to say they mean nothing. If I am attacked personally and the law is broken, I can only rise above and let the law handle it. These people are like vampires. They take and take trying to fix their own self worth. Their ego will not allow them to admit they have something wrong in them. They cut us down to make themselves look bigger and better than they feel. They can be seemingly evil people.

Sometimes the best way to fight fire is with water, not fire. It is also hard to not catch on fire yourself when someone is flaming you. Be wise, not ego filled.

What the Heck?

Have you ever wanted to write something and not know what to write? Seriously, I just opened this page wanting to write something meaningful and emotional and I have no topic to focus on. I am almost laughing and yet I am almost crying for the lack of words I have for the emotion that I am feeling. Last time I had this, a disaster was about to hit. I wish I could see better. I could be better prepared for what is going to happen. I know something is I just don't know what. So I sit here frustrated and growling under my breath.

growing trends

I have a feeling that in the very near future there will be no middle road to take. Extremists are everywhere and ready to rumble. I am so tired of seeing so much hate, debate, fight, and negative spirit towards people with differing ideas. I feel like a turtle in the middle of a buffalo stampede. I can only hope my armor is strong enough to keep me safe.

Why must people always think they are right? Clearly a single answer cannot be right for all people. there are to many people with to many differing ideas for a single answer to work. It is why America was founded. I believe that because we have a society that says each individual is important we have forgotten about the masses. What is good for the masses? Guns or no guns? Religion or no religion? Taxes or no taxes? It would seems that we as a country have painted a picture so well, that the fine details are so fine that the painting is becoming distorted. Much like the term, "to many women in the kitchen makes for an inedible soup", we as a nation have fallen into trap set by self importance. Money and power have taken the place of freedom and debate and fighting have taken the place of peace and harmony. We need to get passed this idea that I is more important than we.

There are thugs out there armed to the teeth. They have the weapons not because they are legal or illegal, they obtained them illegally. If you don't think they are a danger, then you have never been in a natural disaster where chaos rules. I would like to think that I could have the resources to defend myself legally if I had to. If the new gun laws go into effect, the only people with this kind of fire power are the very people we have the right to defend ourselves against.

In the case of religion. I have heard people say the world would be better off without religion. I myself have often thought the same thing. It might be good for one person, but some people need religion. Some people have nothing else to believe in. I think a world without religion would be cold, hard, and a difficult place to live. Being spiritual is part of being human. Being of spirit is part of being alive. It seems that all things beautiful comes from a spiritual connection of one type or other. so why not have spirituality?

Here is what I think we could do without in society as a whole. Corruption, deceit, greed, indifference (apathy), fear, and lack of tolerance.

We need to respect life and understand it. All life. From the grass to the elephant, from the birds to the bugs. From the Chinese to the Cherokee and from the Norse to the Australian Aboriginals.

It is not religion we need to abolish, it is the idea that one religion that is better than the other. It is not guns we need to take away, it is the apathy of all things living. Yes I am the turtle in the stampede. I try to move without extremes. I will probably be the first life to end in this war of self importance and righteousness. I hope that my grave will be testament to the survivors left behind. perhaps my headstone should read "She stood for peace now lies here because of war...isn't it ironic?"

Define Witch

I dont know if I have ever done this before but I think I need to do it now.

From Merriam Webster dictionary

Witch: : one that is credited with usually malignant supernatural powers; especially : a woman practicing usually black witchcraft often with the aid of a devil or familiar.

From Wiki:

Cunning folk: an English language term referring to professional or semi-professional practitioners of magic active from at least the 15th up until the early 20th century. They practiced folk magic – also known as "low magic" – although often combined this with elements of "high" or ceremonial magic.

Comparable figures from other parts of Western Europe include the French devins-guérisseurs and leveurs de sorts and the Dutch toverdokters or duivelbanners and in German Hexenmeister or Kräuterhexen. In Spain they were curanderos whilst in Portugal they were known as saludadores. In Denmark, they were the kloge folk,[1] whilst in Sweden they were known as a klok gumma ("wise old woman") or a klok gubbe ("wise old man").[2][2][3][4][5][6] It is widely agreed by historians and folklorists, such as Willem de Blécourt,[7] Katherine Briggs and Owen Davies,[1] that the term "cunning folk" could be applied to all of these figures as well.

Now with this very basic information can you seriously call yourself a witch? do you harm people for the sake of harming or for personal gain? If you believe in the 3 fold law or Karma you are NOT a witch. You are a magic practitioner who has a good moral conscience and should be called a cunning folk or root worker. You can be a healer or anything or all of the above.

You cannot blame someone for not wanting to be around a witch if they believe in God, Karma, Ala, Buddhism, Hindu or any other social belief. Being a witch is NOT a good thing.

The new age think that because the church has defined witchcraft as anything to do with magic must be performed by witches, they therefore MUST be witches, giving the church power to redefine language.

I REFUSE TO GIVE THE CHURCH THAT KIND OF POWER! They will not dictate to me what is and what is not.

snobs

I don't know what I can say other than I am against snobs. I am tired of religious snobs, art snobs, money snobs, and social snobs. I cant stand the hypocritical nonsense that is going on.

I have been belittled in the art field because I stick up for the street artists who are being ripped to the core in the fine arts community. I am now sticking up for a person who created a group for a traditional religion and the snobs moved in and kicked her out of her own group. I am an outcast from certain social activities because I don't measure up.

What a snob is is a bigot. what they hold their bigotry on is up to them but that is what they are. I for one have decided that no matter the cost to me I will not be included in the friendship of r socialization with snobs. I am not a bigot. I wont be accused of being like them either.

Snobs are needy people with low self esteem wanting some sort of power. If they cannot take it they will create it.

So lets hear it for the so called common folks who do spectacular work in ordinary places! Who don't get paid nearly enough for what they do, and who shouldn't think less of themselves because of the snobs.

Happy New Year

As another year rolls into being, I reflect on the last twelve months. I have made some new friends and I am sorry to say a select few people have left me with a very bitter unpleasant memory of them. It has been a year of very high highs and very low lows. A sweet friend got married, the haunted house is moving forward, my house was flooded, an illness kept at bay one more year, the meeting place for many of my friends was closed forever. I watched lives come together and fall apart. I have both gained respect and lost it this past year.

All in all, It was a year of growth. Not good, not bad. Nothing overly scale tipping either way. I am wiser, colder, warmer, older and yet some younger in my thinking.

I am passing through another phase in life and will embrace this phase as I did the last.

Many blessings to you....always