spell for a broken man

I take these tears
every single one
from your eyes
when you have come undone

I replace them with love
complete as I can
to heal the heart
of this angered man

Let no pity
nor shame creep in
no guilt of what
might have been

gather your thoughts
with what I have given
blend them together
let the light shine in

no more darkness
no more sorrow
love who you love
there is always tomorrow

strides

I grew up to be Amy the beloved.... the dragon flies with me and the bear and jagaur walk at either side. I have dragonfly eyes and a ravens soul

some days I would just rather be dead. seriously today is one of those days..... just a few more hours til tomorrow, I can do this

I hate PTSD and I hate nighmares

I swear there is nothing worse than waking up in tears in the middle of the night. The following day is so confusing. First I want to just sleep. Then I want to cry it out. Then I know I need to get up and act like a normal human being like nothing is wrong with me. Sometimes life just gets in the way of emotions and then sometimes emotions get in the way of life. Today is a day everything is all mixed up of both and I dont know which way to turn.

what a typical ass

The minute he knows Im gone he is all over me trying to get my attention. Where was this attention for the last 5 years? PLEASE! spare me the attention whore ways. Its not about him, its never been about him. If he wanted it about him, he should have been honest and started off that way. I got no problem dealing with a man whore. I got a problem with liars and people who neglect me to be with someone else while they say their neglect is love. There is nothing worse than living with someone and never being spoken to unless its about his job or the car or food. There was no room in his life for me then and now all of a sudden he makes room? OH HELL NO!

Jewel - Foolish Games (Official Video)

Vacation Time

Boy did I need this time. Im learning how to be myself again. I have found that I can be very happy being me. I will have to remember to be myself all the time. I am tired of trying to be someone else "as expected". Fuck that shit! Love me for who I am or dont. Do not try and force me to be someone I am not. I might be stupid enough to give it a try but I can place a bet 100 to 1 that not only will I fail, but you wont like the results either.