brad

There comes a time when you have to say enough is enough. You will be exposed you treacherous beast man wanna be. promise me one thing and do another..... fair warning.... you have pissed off a person who will cross that line and practice witchcraft if need be.

another fantastic blog to follow

http://blog.myteacup.com/

Just Say No

Today is a rough day. I want to quit. I want to quit life. I want to quit living. I just want to quit. I dont know where I should be, how I should be, or if I should be. I am trying my best, and my best just isnt good enough.

PTSD HELL

At a very busy party setting, my friends boss came up to me and told me I need to stop smoking my E cig. He politely said it will kill me. I told him that if I put it down it was probably others I would end up killing. I use it to remind myself that during a PTSD panic attack that I need to keep breathing. He said that the way to deal with that is to just let it go. This is the point I just lost it. I very bluntly told him that if I could let go of being sodomized with a knife for 6 hours straight I would have. His reply was classic. He told me I didnt need to be so defensive. To which I said I wasnt defensive, I was stating a fact and if he was having trouble dealing with my facts just as a verbal statement, imagine how my body and brain are dealing with it as an actual experience.
#PTSDhell #StupidPeopleShouldntBreathe #HeIsLuckyIamSane .

spell for a broken man

I take these tears
every single one
from your eyes
when you have come undone

I replace them with love
complete as I can
to heal the heart
of this angered man

Let no pity
nor shame creep in
no guilt of what
might have been

gather your thoughts
with what I have given
blend them together
let the light shine in

no more darkness
no more sorrow
love who you love
there is always tomorrow

strides

I grew up to be Amy the beloved.... the dragon flies with me and the bear and jagaur walk at either side. I have dragonfly eyes and a ravens soul

some days I would just rather be dead. seriously today is one of those days..... just a few more hours til tomorrow, I can do this