what does it all mean?

a couple of years ago I had this vision. I was about nine years old or so and living in time where being a witch meant death. I lived or stayed with a few women n a cottage in the woods. I was handed a basket and told to take it to the house where a lady was birthing a baby. I was running as fast as I could to get to my destination. I felt every weed and fern hit my legs as I ran. When I came up over a small rise in the forest I heard voices and a commotion. I stopped to hide behind the big tree next to me. I peered out from the tree, and in the bright moonlight I saw four horseman with ropes around an older lady's neck. The lady was hanging by her feet from a tree limb. As I watched horrified, they accused her of being a witch and then on their horses took off running. The lady's head while she was screaming was torn off her body. I never saw so much blood. I screamed in agony because I knew her. The horsemen turned and came back to see who screamed. I ran for the hanging body and stood under it. I showered in her blood making sure not one inch of me was left without stain. The horsemen halted and asked my name. I told him in some language I dont recognize today..."my name is song sparrow"
They dared not touch me because I was covered in witches blood. One of the men laughed and said I wasnt worth the time and effort.
Next thing I knew I was an adult living on a hillside of rocky terrain. Yellow flowers everywhere. I was standing in the doorway talking to my only contact with human life. My friend Frou. Frou brought me supplies from the village below. She told me The villagers were all dead save two. I was the soul witch left. I told her I was alive because of the pine oil I used to ward off evil from my home.

with that, I smelled the oil and came out of my vision.

The meaning of that vision haunts me to this day. I dont know what it means or where it came from. As with most visions Im left perplexed and bewildered.

A title or label?

Are you a Witch?
Are you a Wiccan?
Are you a Shaman?
Are you a Traditional?
Are you a New Age?
Are you just curious?


be what you are and want to be. Labels are only something that make you comfortable or
uncomfortable as the case may be. For most people if they cant put a label on it
then they dont know what to call it and become affraid of it.

Do not call yourself something you arent just to make a point. I have done this and all it did was confuse people.
I have called myself Wiccan because I knew the company I kept understood that Wiccans called themselves witches
and knew that Wiccan witches were not evil people. It was a HUGE mistake! The next thing I knew I was being
asked to recite the rede and 3 fold law what date was my first initiation and all mannor of things.
Then I had to go back and explain why I said I was something when I wasnt, and my credibility was lost in that
group of people.


The only advice I can give you is if you dont have a name for what you do, dont give it a name until you are absoulutely
sure you know that is what it is. If you dont know what you are that is ok. You owe nobody an explination. You are
who you are. (Notice that "what" and "who" are the defining words here) Heck you might be something and just
didnt know there was a name for it. Thats what I was. I did all these strange things and I tried to fit
in where I thought people might accept me and nothing ever seemed to fit. It took forty years to find
out what the heck I was and give a name to it. Sometimes I still do things that others who share the same
title think Im odd for, but thats ok. I am me and this is my path and Im unique for it. Just as you are unique
in your path with your own special talants.

That being said I would like to put my own twist on the "be what you want" statement.

Being what you want means you can do just that. It doesnt mean you can call yourself something just because you want
to be that. I could call myself Catholic but that doesnt mean I am one. Just because you call yourself a witch doesnt mean
you are one either. Finding your identity can be the most difficult thing one can do. Add a practice to the mix and it can
be impossible.
Let me explain.
A practice is something you do. Law, medicine, magic are all practices. You can practice each one.
Does that make you a lawyer, doctor or witch? no of coarse not. Anyone can put a band aid on a boo boo. That doesnt make
you a doctor Anyone can fight a traffic ticket or even represent yourself in court. That doenst make you a lawyer, even if you
are good at it. Just as practicing magic doesn't always make you a witch. It takes study, patience, practice and many years
of trial and error to "be" anything.

In todays society things are done in an instant. Jobs, money, talant, love, and all sorts of things gotten in an instant.
People tend to not want to do what is neccessary to get the results they want. They want the results without the work.
Much to my dismay, it is harder and harder to find serious people willing to work seriously in anything.