Grave Walking

I have been walking a few of the cemeteries here in town and have had some very interesting experiences. It would seem that someone in the St Louis Cemetery #1 doesnt like vertical pictures taken. My camera malfunctioned. My wish was redirected and granted just as soon as I made it. I cannot be thankful enough for such a quick answer. Holt cemetery has touched me in a way I wasnt sure I could be touched. There is something deeply disturbing and thought provoking there. Corvid came and gave me what I was looking for there. The Metairie cemetery felt cold and yet still mysterious.

I wont go into my personal experiences in depth because I am still sorting them out and I may have been touched in a way that shouldnt be spoken of.

I can say this, I have been deeply moved by what I have seen and felt. I have had a euphoric feeling that wont stop, and Im not sure I want it to. The next step on my path is both a cautious one and final. I have to build the courage to do it.

pressing onward

I went to a book signing tonight and was pleasantly surprised at the content. I believe I know the next step I should take on my spiritual path. Its something I really have always wanted to do but never trusted the light hearted folks to guide me on this path. I am by no means a light heart or even light in spirit. I choose to do and be what my mind and sound reasoning thinks is best. So, I am going down a path that is not for everyone. I will post results of my practice as it continues. Yay my spiritual size is BACK!

Since When?

Since when does a person get to old to be sexual? I was slammed today for being over 40 and bi, hittin on other women. Good gods I might not be able to snag me a lil hotti but damn people Im not dead! If shes gonna put it out there Im going to look! Who in the hell paved the road for all you young folks to be so open with your sexuality in the first place? When I was in school I couldnt say a word about being what and who I am because I would have been locked away in some mental ward somewhere. To all you lil chicas out there just kissin on girls and being silly and free.... ROCK ON but dont go tellin me I aint got no right to get all hot and bothered over it. I lived through hell just to be able to say I like girls let alone be able to kiss one. And to all you Boys out there hatin on me because I can talk to the girls and you cant..... Grow some balls be who you are and stop hatin on people who have more balls than you do. Take a page from my book and learn somthin ya stupid punk! Oh and when you do? Ill be glad to stop hatin on you!

Now that I have ranted for the day.... time for another cup of coffee..... HMMMPH!

drama

Is having drama in your life blocking you from happiness? Maybe the next question should be, Are you causing drama because you dont know how to achieve happiness? Did you know your drama affects everyone else by blocking their happiness?

These are all questions that people need to ask themselves and of others. If you or someone you know is creating a scene to affect the people around them its called drama. Do you live in drama? Why?

There is the real question. Why do people create drama? It is attention seeking behavior. It is also manipulative behavior. These people tend to drag everyone into their mess hoping to create a smoke screen to hide what is really going on. In other words they are liars. They may not realize that this is what they are doing because the attention is more important than anything else. These people cannot be trusted and need professional help.

I have a person like this in my life. She is not the first soap opera creator and Im more than confidant she wont be the last. However, She is giving me no choice but to take action against her. There are many people she has involved and some are innocent. I dont know exactly what to do because any action at all drags me into the soap opera. Normally I would just ignore everything and cause her to go away. This time I have no choice.