Just Say No

Today is a rough day. I want to quit. I want to quit life. I want to quit living. I just want to quit. I dont know where I should be, how I should be, or if I should be. I am trying my best, and my best just isnt good enough.

PTSD HELL

At a very busy party setting, my friends boss came up to me and told me I need to stop smoking my E cig. He politely said it will kill me. I told him that if I put it down it was probably others I would end up killing. I use it to remind myself that during a PTSD panic attack that I need to keep breathing. He said that the way to deal with that is to just let it go. This is the point I just lost it. I very bluntly told him that if I could let go of being sodomized with a knife for 6 hours straight I would have. His reply was classic. He told me I didnt need to be so defensive. To which I said I wasnt defensive, I was stating a fact and if he was having trouble dealing with my facts just as a verbal statement, imagine how my body and brain are dealing with it as an actual experience.
#PTSDhell #StupidPeopleShouldntBreathe #HeIsLuckyIamSane .