thoughts on living in new orleans this week

You know? I arrived at this wonderful city thirty days before Katrina hit. The storm itself was someting to behold. A large ball of energy sucking the life from earth and all that live on her. For those of us who survived the storm and managed to stay in the area, a huge wall of sorrow went up like a bubble. I had never felt anything like it. I cried for months and in some areas that wall of sorrow is still there. I feel it as if it were my own. It makes me sick and makes me cry. I cant control the feelings I get when I enter the city and its neighborhoods.

Last night a football game was won and I instantly broke out into an overwhelming joy. I couldnt help myself. At first I questioned my reaction. After all, I dont like football and didnt even watch the game. Then I realized...It wasnt the winning of the game I was happy about. It was the feelings of all those people spreading outward and reaching me. I had people from all over te world contacting me and telling me how happy they were for New Orleans.

I dont know if a curse has been lifted or what. What I do know is that the people of New Orleans are soul filled, spiritual people and have no problem expressing to the world how they are.

I am here to tell New Orleans THANK YOU for reminding us all that we are spiritual people and can be touched in ways we never thought possible. Your heart and soul unite to tell us your story which in and of itself is so beautiful no one can deny it. We have felt your sorrow, and now your joy.

a day of insecurities

the title of witch is so ominous. the idea of being a witch and what a real witch is isnt what i am. a real witch is mostly self concerned. a neo witch is that which the christian defines as witch, rebellious against the church and authority practicing gifts not recognised by the church regardless of intention. i am not even sure about that title. shaman is a title that is given by a tribe to a person so that doesnt apply as i have no tribe.

i am mostly unaware of how my gifts are used. people tell me i heal them just by being around them. i know i practice obtaining a constant inflow of positive energy. i also practice traveling to other worlds to obtain knowledge for the betterment of self and others. i see and talk to spirits. i am so empathic i spend most of my time alone because being around people can be draining because i dont know how to turn it off. i recognize there is more than one god but i follow no god becuse it creates turmoil within me to choose one over another.

i am a simple woman living in a simple place with not so simple spiritual matters. i wish i had a purpose and a direction with it. definition is so hard to accept and understand. i am growing impatient with this rut i am in but have no idea how to get out of it.

Imbolc

there comes a time when the trees awake
to feel the sun and from the Earth they take
the soil of rebirth is replenished for growth
there comes a time
and the time called Imbolc