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I am slowly becoming disenchanted with many things as of late. I dunno, maybe I have hit a speed bump. I am finding so much wrong with things its irritating me no end. In my spirituality I am finding my path to be more and more alone and less and less "of family" In art I am finding I am a rare breed. I am attending a school where there are people so secluded from the worlds events they dont know who Phil Collins is and some fellow students snub the street artists and I dont think that way at all. I refuse to starve for my art. Its not about me its about creating emotion in others. My emotion is mine not someone elses.

For a long time I have felt at home with anything that has come my way now everything is different. Dont get me wrong, I LOVE my school and I adore my spiritual practice I wouldnt trade them for anything. I just wish I had someone to share them with and have someone understand.

Maybe Im just in a funk. I dunno...BLAH! I wanna eat my way through a chocolate cake and gallon of vanilla ice cream. I also wish I could recoil into a corner and wrap a thick wall around me. Im feeling so beat up and tired. I dont get why people dont get me. I dont get why I cant explain to people who and what I am and how I know what I know.