Wednesday, July 17, 2013
Where do we stand?
I have been spending a lot of time on a social media site and it would seem that the frustration is building about the Zimmerman case. I have been trying so hard to stay out of it and be objective. I have also been trying to figure out what the confusion is. After seeing many posts about different court cases concerning this law I can see where the problem lies. It is not the idea of someone got killed and someone didnt pay for his crime (tho that is what the media would like us to think) It is the simple fact that we as citizens dont know where we stand with the law. whats good for the goose should be good for the gander.
I dont know if its because of the media not giving us all the facts about the cases they are reporting on and have a political agenda. Or the facts of each case arent allowed to be seen by the public. Or that the law makers are twisting it all up for some personal gain to be elected or what the case is. These are the questions that should be asked. We shouldnt be riled up against a single man. We need to rile up against the people who are manipulating what we see and why we arent able to see all of it so we can better understand. Gods forbid if we ever get to see the entire facts and become responsible voters who elect judges and sheriffs and the like. Gods forbid we gain back the control of what we want instead of what someone else wants for us. I wish the people of this country would stop thinking so small and see the bigger picture. Do you not see you are being manipulated by some jack ass with an agenda? The race issue is a smoke screen. You are falling for it hook line and sinker because you dont know what else to be angry about.
Let me explain further. When a 12 yr old girl in Oklahoma shot a burglar in her home while on the phone with 911. The man didnt try to harm her. He wasnt armed. Nobody thought she would have to shoot. But she did. She is declared a hometown hero. A man in Florida who is head of a neighborhood watch questions a kid who was high on drugs in the middle of the night. The kid becomes agitated and strikes the neighborhood watchman. The watchman pulls out a gun to defend himself and kills the kid. All this after the 911 operator told the watchman to NOT APPROACH the kid. Seems to me as long as 911 says its ok to shoot, its ok to shoot. See the problem? You might say...Well she was just a little girl and scared. Im sorry, a gun is a gun is a gun and anyone holding one and is knowledgeable on how to use it, should also know they have the upper hand.
My perspective is that the law makers and keepers of this society are not able to be rigid with their own rule and law. Its all subject to interpretation and depending on the officer of the law you are dealing with (be it governor, judge, lawyer or police), you can do or say just about anything as long as they agree with you. THIS is why we are angry.
Lets deal with the problem at hand, not what is spoon fed to us by those who have an agenda.
Thursday, July 11, 2013
what depression does
Ok I admit it, sometimes I suffer from depression. Once every 7-10 years my body and brain go into this funk that I need help getting out of. I dont understand it and so far no therapist understands it either. It takes me about a year to get out of it and it can get severe.
Let me tell you what its like for me. Depression is not anxiety. I am not nervous. I am not in a panic. Its the exact opposite. Frankly nothing matters during my depression. Nothing at all. Not life, not death, not food or drink. I dont care if I sleep or not. I dont care if I am loved or not. It is a huge mass of nothingness. The physical side of me fights against it. My brain wants to stop breathing but my body says NO I am going to live. My body starts to ache because it gets tired from the fight. When the advertisement says "depression hurts" they arent kidding. Light hurts, darkness kills. Everything becomes ultra sensitive and makes me want to not live anymore. I have dreams of dying or being dead. My dreams then haunt my days in vivid memory of death.
Imagine the hopeless feeling because of lack of support and misconceptions and misdiagnosis. This is something that WILL go away on its own if I can just hold on. It always does. Its holding on that is so hard. I dont want a drug that I have to take for a life time just because the docs dont know what else to do with me. For crying out loud it only lasts a year and wont be back for another 7-10 years. Why is this so difficult to understand?
ok this makes me more depressed just thinking about it. Its seems to be a cycle doesnt it?
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