Why is it that I can have the experience of so many things but have no education on it what so ever? Take Vodou for example. I went to a "Pagan" spring time celebration. I had no idea that a Vodou priestess and her whole house was going to show up and perform a spiritual wedding. I knew nothing of Vodou. Sure living in New Orleans you cant help but be brushed with a few rules of engagement and respect type stuff but nothing about the religion itself. So I get into this circle. I was open and honored and wanted to learn as much as I could. What happens to this New Vodou virgin? She gets ridden by the Lwa. I have been asking about it for years. people laugh at me or shoo me away like I was poison. I don't know the rules of religion, and something spectacular happened to me and I want to know more. Why is that so hard to understand?
I am still asking foolish questions stumbling on my words and definitions because I really don't have a frustrating clue about any of it. I can only ask from where I come from and most people wont and don't respect what I have to say. I have been possessed by the holy spirit, a jaguar, 3 different Lwa, my mother, and at least 4 spirits I have invited in for better communication. I am NOT a new person to this experience.... however I have no clue about religion. I am sick of being judged by religion/education and not experience. When I tell a theologian my experience they say it cant happen or shouldn't have happened or whatever....Now I'm no expert, but if the spirits find someone they like to possess, who is a human to say the spirit shouldn't possess anyone?
Stinking religion, Christians say I am to much a witch to have the holy spirit, I am not initiated in Vodou to be ridden, I cannot have a jaguar as a guide because I am not from south America,I must be a new age neo Pagan because Raven is in my name, I do not have a college degree or formal education to explain my experiences so I am not legit. THIS is what is being said about me and to me.
I would like to say something. I didn't ask for any of this. Not a single experience. I didn't ask to have shamanic journeys, I didn't ask to experience shape shifting, I didn't ask for the holy spirit, I didn't ask for the angel to appear before me, I didn't ask to be able to heal people, I didn't ask to have a dragon, I didn't ask for the Lwa to enter me, I didn't ask for this gift I have.
What I did do was offer to be of service in the best way I can. If the spirit can accept that why cant people?
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