the magic of love

I have discovered something. Love does what is right. They say you have to love yourself before you can love others. In order to do that you have to treat yourself as you would treat others you love. If you really love yourself, would you give yourself another chance. You would give yourself a chance to learn, grow and change to make yourself better. You will learn and forgive. So in that spirit, I will love my husband as much as I love myself. He screwed up bad. He hurt me beyond hurt. But I love him and love does the right thing. He needs to know and experience this kind of love. I will be his cheer leader as long as he moves forward and continues to grow in love. If not me, then who? I have him for a reason. He named me Valkyris for a reason. He said I was the one who would rescue him. I have been charged with this task before I even knew what the task was. I will accept this task. I will accept the spirit the task involves. I can only hope we both grow as we are meant to grow. onward and upward.

3 crows came to me one day and sat upon my fence.
one cawwed and spoke as if there was some urgence.
I knew the news had to be bad
so I prepared the best I thought I could have.

When the news came I was devistated
Who would have thought history would be replicated
I thought I was careful this time around
It would seem my life's path is a river of tears from a clown

Hearing that inner truth speak

I have been going through some pretty serious trauma drama lately. In trying not to go overboard with emotions, I listen for the constant voice. You know the one? The never changing constant in the midst of all the massive choices to make in times of trouble. It goes against everything I want to do but I know it is the right thing to do. Wait, be still, give it time, look for positive, love and do not hate or curse, are all things that have stayed the same.

In trying to level my heart and still my mind I have decided to go on medications to help me through this tough time. I don't expect I will need to be on them forever. They have blocked much of my ability to reach out and connect with some spirits, which I suppose might be a good thing that I not feel everything around me. It is time for me to deal with me and not everyone else. In this time I have also learned just how much people rely on me for their well being and are not my friends.

For those of you who are sticking by me and supporting me in my personal time of need, Thank You! and for those of you who are in need of my talents, please be patient. I don't want to damage myself trying to help you.