Whats in a name?

Do you know what your name means? Have you given it any thought as to what it means to have that name?

I used to hate my name and to be honest using my given name still bothers me. Its one of those names that you think a cheerleader would have. Now that would be fine if I was a cheerleader type, but Im not. Im one of those people who would have been rightly named Gertrude or Helga. Something that sounded strong and old.

The name given me means "beloved". All I have to say about that is EW.......UNLESS you put it with my whole name. My name was given to me by my sister when I was born. She was given a list by my mother and she chose my name from its sound. My sister was all of 14 when she did this so you can imagine what she chose right?

A couple of years ago I was doing a study on names and how important they are in shaping a future. Naming a child is one of the most important things someone can do. Thats what they thought in the days of old and I believe it today.
My brothers name means "Honoring God, the noble one from the oak grove" He has become a very zealous Christian and holds his head so high most of the time I can cound his nose hairs.
My mothers name meand "Bright one pledged of the ocean" Now anyone who knew anything about my mother knew she had a love of the ocean and light like a beacon when she was near it. Even when she was land locked she painted ocean scenes and longed to have as much yellow and blue in her life as possible. Her very soul yearned for the ocean.

I have written some in this blog on the kinds of things I do. Yes I am a spiritual person. I talk to trees and animals and spirit travel at will. I am very opinionated and yet I try to be peaceful about my opinions and view others opinions as learning tools and often study guides. Its fair to say that what you see is what you get. I am an artistic person who loves music and dance with a passion. I have never settled my mind on one thing for very long so I tend to be a free thinking person.I also am very complicated on matters that mean the most to me. I know some of you know my real name but I bet you never knew its meaning.

I am "Beloved renowned warrior from the oak grove"

For those of you who know anything about the path I am on, it is very plain to see that my future from birth was handed to me on a silver platter.....by a 14 year old girl who suffers brain damage.

I challenge you to look up the meaning of your full name. You might find something out about yourself you never knew...and then again, I can bet theres something about it you have always known.

Music

Music effects my daily routine. If I play soft music I tend to be depressed or insightful. If I play loud heavy music I can be very loud and angry. Certain rhythms send my feet dancing while others make me sit or even lie down. I dont know if it is the energy collected and then put out for me to hear or if it how my body reacts to the energy I am listening to, either way it is an interesting study.

I know that plants react to music and the scientists have found that some plants do well with classical and some do well with rock and roll. Unborn babies respond well to music also.

I have found that sound and rhythm are what allows me to do what I do. The more I like the sound the better the outcome is. I cant help but wonder how many others are like me. I wonder how many work with the same kinds of sounds I do. For me its drumming and droning with good harmony. I dont know how to put what I am trying to describe but I can certainly tell you when I hear it. It would seem that my craft is severely effected by what Im listening to.
Maybe I should collect music as payment for my work.....how many kinds of work could come form that? Now this is an interesting idea. I will have to think more on it.

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The sounds of an echo
When you whisper to the wind
In the minds eye
Drawing pictures within

Colors in prism
That dance all around
Music is life
harmony profound

Balance in time
Our dreams to escape
Thoughts of you
My soul to take

Simple it seems
To understand
The meaning of all that is
And what we are seeing

Fools are we
With thoughts incomplete
To end a story
When we speak

To Break Free of the Vampires Hold

to rid ______
of being a target
and force the
feeders to go away

to let the love
and understanding of one
be stronger at will
and keep them at bay

behold the mother
caretaker of all
go to her now
upon my call

show her the ways
of loves hard truths
and break the ties
and feelings of youth

Hecatate, Diana, Artemis all
the mothers surround her
and keep her from answering
the vampires call

change not her love
but eyes to see
set her mind
and body free

we love our sister/brother
_______'s her name
bring her/him back
to us again.

a candle for the Goddesses and Gods and one for________in the center. I use sage for cleansing, cinnamon for strength, and lavender for calm. (burn the spices/herbs) I print out the persons signature so I have something thats personally theirs to place on the alter. upon every morning I will repeat this until they comes back!

LAdy Raven

Freedom

I am but one
Who stands alone

I look around to see

The we
The me
Them and they

All is seen
And goes astray

My protection is
My dignity
Transparent as
It may be

I am but one
Who stands alone

I am Freedom
And Freedom is me

Your Belief Or Mine?

IMHO...
and I mean to be really humble here...if everyone has their own
path, doesnt that mean there are just as many ways to walk a path as
well?

as a former Christian I can say there are literaly 1000's of
Christian Witches. Most dont even know what they are practicing.
My old Pastor discovered the healing powers of liquid oxygen
and went around putting the stuff all over peoples wounds healing
them almost instantly saying how great God was for showing this to
him. It cracked me up because I knew of this practice back when I
was just a girl and mom was a practicing witch.
Being filled with the holy spirit is the same as being a medium or an integral part of Shamanic practices.
Shamans have been practicing the laying on of hands since the beginning of time and the Hindu people also practice this. Come to think of it the African Voodoo beliefs say you can both give and take by the laying on of hands.
Its all semantics people, Who cares what you call it. It is what it is. Life is far to short and far to precious to waste on arguing about who can or should do what and how. The fact is, if we can all be kind in our thinking and put beliefs aside and just practice what we do, much more would get done. I see no need to carry out a war thats lasted more than 2000 years.

Have you ever noticed that you seem to have certain times when things just dont feel "right"? You know its not your period because that was last week. You know its not the significant other because they have been perfect. People just seem to bother you. Sound bothers you everything isn't "right" Check the planetary alignments. Its probably Mercury in retrograde. I'm no expert on this and in fact know very very little about it but I can say this, my friends go crazy when this time happens.

The best way I know to deal with it is just to laugh it all off. You can try to explain away why its happening but most wont believe you. Its better to snicker to yourself and wait out the storm. I spend most of my retrograde days in solitude and watching the most hilarious things I can find. My dog is a great form of entertainment. She tends to do stupid things only she can do best. Like burrowing a tunnel under the covers only to smell My husband's feet and come back up. I use my computer and go online to watch people do stupid things in video. Cartoons are a good way to past the time too. Anything to get me to smile. So if you see me out and Im laughing at everything you can bet its because our friend mercury is at his tricks and I'm trying to think its funny.

Is hypnosis a form of travel?

I was in a post traumatic stress disorder and self hypnosis treatment program. And they do teach you to travel but its not traveling like the Shaman travels. There is a difference . Its a simple answer if you have done both and not so simple if you havent. Hypnosis is done the same way but is very controlled by the brain and thoughts and feelings. You teach your brain to shut off and go where you need or want it to go. And then you can do whatever you want to do while you are there. If your not to controlled in hypnosis you can see things that
you thought you didnt put there but your brain really creates it so it will make simple connections to remember and store information.
Its done with repetitive motion or sound. .

A Shaman has a gift of doing and seeing things that are not controlled. When Im traveling I can "put" things in my travels but I cant change where I go a nor can I change the main purpose I am there.

Say I was traveling to a forest and I am to see an attack by a cougar. In my travels the cougar attacks me.
I can create a deer to stand between us and watch it kill the deer. however if the travel lesson was for me to die to see where I was to be buried, the cougar would attack the deer and then a tree would fall on me. I might be able to change the scene but I cannot change its outcome. I should add that the more I interfere the more traumatic the travel is. Also....I cant change who I talk to in the travels or what they say.

Its very disturbing when my travels include people or spirits. It is very draining and almost always has some negative affect on my body. Talking with the elders this way, is not the same as traveling either. Its more of a state in which I open my shell to allow the spirit world to converse with me.

Thats the diff of being a traveler and a hypnosis. as simply as I can put it."




This is something I wrote before I learned to direct my travels. In the beginning I had no control over where I went. I had to learn the ways of
the underworld and how to travel. Now things are different. I go to many places and stay and go as I please.

Talking with the spirits is still harder for me than simple traveling. Spirits tend to drain me so much they make me ill. I am not a medium.
That is something quite clear to me, but if I must retrieve one, I will do it and deal with the illness later.

Responsibility in Witchcraft

"if the publishers are making money, then people are buying. If people are buying, then people are reading and if people are reading they are learning...and its not the select few that real teachers would want to teach to...its the general public and believe me the people who would WANT to harm would be the ones to study it the hardest.

I have been practicing without claiming a title for some time now but since I have claimed the title "Witch" I can say my work load has come to me 10 fold. I now have to be responsible in my actions as well as my words. Im even watching the kind of toilet paper I buy because theres a company out there that is using our rain forests to make it. I notice trash on the streets a lot more than I used to and pick up what I can. Our Mother Earth is being polluted to the point of us not even being able to see her anymore. What do we do about it? Another thing I have picked up a habit of doing that I think we should all do to better our community...how about casting healing spells over all the EMS and ambulance crews in your area so they can perform at a level that would amaze even the doctors. Its a lot of work but its worth it. Honor the ancestors by cleaning up cemeteries. You would be surprised at how grateful people are. You want to talk about magic? Watch even the hardest of hearts melt when you send them a message from a loved one whos passed on as you clean off the crud from years of neglect.

I might not be able to grow all my own herbs and make my own tinctures but I do what I can and help the Earth and people of and on this earth they only way I know how. If thats using magic or talking to the dead or breaking my back I will do it because I am a witch and thats what a witch does."


I made that comment talking on a forum about witchcraft and the responsibilities to the readers.

Lets be honest here, the general public has an agenda. Most of them have the power or money agenda right? Not many at all have the control to use witchcraft for what it is intended. Im here to tell you that the witchcraft I know will kick your ass if you dont respect it. Some call it fate, some call it karma, some call it consequences, some call it a lesson from god, and some call it lack of responsibility. Whatever the definition "if you are not a witch dont practice the craft". You can study it and learn about it but please dont practice it. It can eat you alive. It takes an extraordinary amount of control not to get consumed by its temptations. Im sure you have all seen the results of what can happen. Ever hear of witch wars? How about covens breaking up because the leader got to full of themselves? How about authors who no longer accept anyone elses views on the subject? Yes these are all signs of people who shouldnt be in practice. Some of the most famous witches of all time shouldnt have been witches because of the power lust. I have seen it time and time again, people who practice and lose sight of what it is really about.

Now you ask what is it really about. Well first off I can say its about discovering yourself. Always looking inward for the answers. You might say thats a bunch of crap. Well if you take a look at the paragraph above it seems to me if you dont know what and who you are, you are in for a long hard road that will eventually end with a hard knock or two or even three depending on how hard your head is. After you get to know yourself and you are sure that after studying about the craft you want to try it....please by all means try it. After your first try re-examine how you feel about yourself. See if the power lust hasnt bitten you. If you fail to succeed in what you try ask yourself why do you want to try again. Most of the time I bet you would answer, "to see if I can do it' or "to see if its real" or "to see if it will work" If any of these are your answer you shouldnt be doing it. Im not going to tell you what the answer should be because those of you who know, know that its far to precious a thing to just dole out on a whim for writing a book.

Magic is only a part of the craft and even everyday people can do magic. Energy can be drawn in and sent by anyone. Dont believe me? Go to any belief system, any religion at all. Catholics use the energy of candle flame, pentacostals use the laying on of hands and dancing, hindu, buddists, muslim, agnostics athiests, everyone does it their own way they just give it a different name. What makes a witch a witch is the ability to not only work magic but work it in conjuction with the otherworlds.

Im not talking about UFO's, martians and other planets. Im talking about the spirit realms. The underworld, as it were.
This is what makes a witch a witch. I know the people think that anyone who does magic is a witch and there are those who think that you dont have to practice magic to be a witch. From everything that I have studied and everything I have read, I can safely say that witches are not common, they are rare. Magicians are common, cunning folk are common, power hungry people with an agenda are VERY common, psychics are even pretty common. A witch is someone who travels to the underworld, understands what is there and uses magic to achieve the needs of the underworld. This is why they have been hated and feared for thousands of years. Before the Church and governments took over, witches were feared and respected. Their knowledge was sought to heal as well as curse. A witch knows the ways of nature and the ways of the spirits. You cant deny that if you know nothing about the underworld and told of the dangers and are to fear it, then it is safe to say that witches MUST be feared also.

What is so sad is that anything we dont understand, we fear. I believe the heart of the witch is more important than the practice of the craft. This is where power lust can play a very important role in not only your craft but it could mean that your intentions might get you killed in some places. Not to mention what becomes of the name witch. It is human nature to stereotype a label or title. Here in the United States you can be fired, mocked, scorned, and be cast aside. I have seen some people run out of towns. Never underestimate the power of fear. And never underestimate the power you have to either induce that fear or calm it.

This is why witches really are a rare thing. It is bad enough that the underworld is a dangerous place, but the mundane will no doubt attempt to make this world a living nightmare for you if they dont understand what you are about. Hence the need to be solitary in practice.

My Wedding Vows

Love of my love
Soul of my soul
You have entered my heart
And made me whole

I promise to love
And abide thy rule
Of accepting myself
As well as you

Where e're thou dost go
Mine heart sure to follow
In glee and in joy
In sadness and sorrow

I care not of wealth
Nor status or fame
I care only for us
And our life that remains

I give to you
My life as it be
For now and forever
Eternally


Love of my love
Soul of my soul
Live in my heart
And call it home

Beautiful beautiful
Love of my life
We are as one
For now and all time

tools

As far a Ritual stuffs go, I have found that growing your own herbs is
the most rewarding way to go if you can. Its also cheaper than if
you buy. It also gives you something to barter with if you have
extra and need to make a trade for something with a friend. It will also give you an idea about
nature and how it works.

I made my own cloak from fabric I got at a end of month sale for
twenty five cents a yard. I crocheted the trim, and for a frog (button) at the
top I used a round bloodstone for its protection and equality
and crocheted a button top cover to hold it in place. no one
would ever guess my cloak only cost me about 2 dollars just buy
looking at it.

I made my wand from a tree in my back yard. Okay its not really a tree, but it looks like one.
Its a weed that grows tall like a tree and has a spongy material in the center of its branches.
It was tough to carve up but it was easy to hollow out to put my crystal in it.

my circlette I purchased. Im just not good with metals so I found a really nice
hand made circlette to buy. As you grow in your path, you will discover what you need and or
want for your tools and how you want them to look. Just remember that this is your path
and these are going to be your tools. The more personal you make them the more
meaningful they will be.

You might ask why would it make them more meaningful. We all hear about how hand made
things work better but nobody ever really says why. Some of us think we are horrible at hand made
crafting and gardening and would rather buy everything we want. But answer each of these questions
and maybe you will start to understand why its better to grow or handcraft than it is to buy.

1.) If you buy your things, how important are they to you?
2.) Would you be able to go out and get another just like it?
3.) Who puts what kind of energy into the making of that thing?
4.) Doesnt energy put into that thing affect how it works?
5.) How unique would it be if others had the exact same thing?
6.) How would that make your craft yours?

How many times have you made something and have it turn up missing or ruined by some
unthinkable act? I know I have shed tears over some things lost over time from a divorce
or natural disaster. Clothes made by my mother I will never rid myself of, where as the store
bought clothing I replace at will and quite frequently. There is a reason for this.
The time and energy thought love and spells woven into every stitch by either myself or someone
I care for, I know are powerful purposeful and deliberate. Store bought things just arent done that way.
We have no way of knowing who put what kind of energy into the making of generic things.
What would happen if you wanted to perform a spell for a healthy pregnancy? What if the tools,
candle, wand, cloth, or even other spell words you used were made by someone with anger,
or resentment twards an ex partner now forcing child support on them or someone sad because
of the loss of a child, or sick? It would effect your spell work greatly and make it harder for you
to achieve your spells.

Sure you can purify, cleanse and replenish tools but How much energy do you think you can use without
getting drained? Wouldnt it be better to just make your own? If you are still doubting me on this
and think you cant make anything as good as "so and so"... Witchcraft is an art right? Try looking at art!
There is plenty of art in the museums that looks like a five year old can do just as good and sometimes
even better. Yet because of energy put into the art and freedom of expression, people think its great. Your
witchcraft will be the same.

Do yourself a favor and let go of all the stigmas you put on yourself and do what you love, want, and need to do.

Sex and Magic

personally (and this is just my opinion and logical deductions) I think that part of the reason people feared witches around men and saying a man was bewitched is because witches used sex for magic. Doling out and taking that kind of energy is intoxicating and addictive. I dont think it was written about because sex was always taboo and a personal issue
I learned about sex magic like I learned about traveling and any other kind of magic... it just happened. I had what most would think was a really over exerted sex once, back in the 80's and it looked like I passed out. I couldnt move and I couldnt talk. It was like I wasnt there. But for me I WAS there. It was almost like hovering over myself in a glass room and everything I saw was distorted and beautiful. I didnt want my partner to panic so I tried and tried to speak to him and couldnt. Then I "thought" to him. It worked, and with surprising results. Thats when I knew my head had more power than my body. Now I harness that energy for things I really need to have done. Its just a way to build and harness magic and because theres 2 people (or more) its amazing how much energy people can put out through pleasure.

I had to perform it for myself once. I cant even describe what it did to me. I am forever changed because of it. I dont know if its for the better or worse even, Im just changed.

Healing is the best thing to use such powerful magic on. Cancer doesnt like it I can say that with 100% certainty *giggles and cackles and stuffs*

its about storing before sex and building it during sex but in the end releasing it for a purpose and sending it where it needs to go no Im not talking ritual, Im talking taking whatever energy is there and using it. It has also caused me to travel in some cases. Its the most awesome thing.

OF

OF

of life
of time
of water
of earth

of silence
of song
of death
of birth

of air
of fire
of stone
of wood

of sun
of stars
of bad
of good

of white
of black
of dark
of light

of moon
of cloud
of day
of night

of love
of hate
of short
of long

of part
of whole
of weak
of strong

of space
of time
of bound
of free

of man
of woman
of all
of me

My home my soul

I was taking a trip across the world today by using the youtube website. I traveled to Finland, Germany, Japan, India, Ireland and so many wonderful places. I was searching for traditional folk tunes. I was so sad to see that in some countries folk is turning to metal rock. I of all people understand the youth and the need to be up on the times. I wish however they could not do this to their folk heritage. If they only knew what it means to lose your heritage.
Coming from America, most would say I am American but my roots are all Germanic. My soul has a memory that stretches out back to my European roots. I am trying so hard to recapture what used to be, only finding that the homeland people are wanting to be like me and my country. Dont do it good people. Dont make the same mistake I did. Save yourselves from a heart filled with wonder and sorrow. Keep what you have sacred. Keep the old stories, the old music, the old clothing. Keep your honor and love of family, keep everything as it once was. You will be the originals and we will always be the ones to come searching for you.
I dont know what caused my people to leave Europe. It wasnt written. Most of my family traditions are gone, and what is left will not be passed down to any of the children because they are not interested in having it. My grandmother used to call her sheep in by yodeling. I used to think it was so stupid. No one in my family has sheep anymore. And yodeling was a crime against rock and roll as far as I was concerned. By the time I graduated high school I have to admit I thought my mom was pretty cool. She made the towns maids dresses for our Bavarian festival and she ALWAYS won the yodeling contest. I soon left home, got married and had kids. I never learned to yodel. Mom died and took that with her. Im the only one who really wanted to try, I just got to busy. Now that my kids are grown and having kids of their own they will have even less heritage than I do.
I can go to Germany I can visit my distant relatives in Canada and New England but the family link seems gone forever because of careless handling.
If you have family stories, music, wedding traditions, funeral traditions, food, ANYTHING at all that has been passed down. Keep it close to your family and TEACH your children. It doesnt matter if they dont want to know. Make them know who they are, where they came from, and how they should be. It is the most important thing a family can do. It is the most important thing a country can do.
....and from this point of view, Its the most important thing a single soul can know.

lost in a melting pot made of lack of tradition caused by political correctness and lack of concern, steeped in shame and guilt from religion and self importance
LAdy Raven
Germanic heritage dating back to 1632 somewhere on the land where two rivers crossed and the people farmed wheat in the north

Rock

I went to the underworld last evening to determine if rocks have spirits or if they are dwelled in by a spirit. Depending on the lore, people have said it can go either way, so I chose to find out for myself.

I drifted down as I always do then stretched my mind out to my subject. I wanted to just ask and get an answer. What I got was an infusion. My spirit melded with the rock and I became everything the rock was. I was sore and stiff. What surprised me is that I was very very very angry. I was trying to move but couldn't. I was trying to breath but couldnt. I was trying to do anything! but couldnt. Then I began to feel as if someone had banished me there. like I was cursed or in a punishment. The question I asked next would give me only more questions. "was it always this way?" the answer was "yes". Then I left that where is was and came back.

I have never felt so sorry for a quest and never so perplexed of the answers I got. I still dont know if the rock is a spirit or if the spirit lives in the rock. What I do know is that its angry, frustrated, and wants to be free. I felt it more male than female also. Dirt feels female, water feels female, rock?....most certainly male. Now I wonder if earthquakes are the built anger and strength gained to move itself. this is something to ponder. If rock ever becomes mobile I would not want to be around or have it dislike me for any reason.

the Oak

There is an oak so old and big it had to be chained to help keep it from splitting in two. When I saw the oak I thought how sad for it to have such an injury and scar. I walked up to hug it and something amazing happened. I heard it say thank you in the most odd deep still tone so still it was almost not there. So I said you are welcome.

I love that tree and go to see it when I can. It recognizes me when I approach it. Without question I hug the tree and send it my love and healing or whatever I have in energy. I figure it can convert my energy as it pleases for what it needs. I would say the tree is male but I wouldnt know for sure. Im not a studier of trees nor did I ask it questions. Just a simple recognition of its existence, its shade, Its years of beauty to the human eye, its pain, and its solitude. I have talked with many a tree but I have to say no other was as simple and clear as the oak. I felt a kinship to it.

Pain induced taveling

"it works" When you think of all the rituals of all the nations and all the tribes with all the people you might know to be spirit travelers, 99% of them use pain for one type of travel or another.

In todays society of freaks and peeps who are into tattooing, branding, piercing, cutting, BDSM, and even hooking, all I see are tribal instincts coming out of their seams. (most dont realize the ancestors calling to them) These practices are just a few of those used as ritual initiation to start trancing. There are to many practices to list them all but you can bet any way to mess with your head to force it to not be in your body has been used by the ancients and traditionals for traveling to the other side. Not every trip is good and some end in death, not just by the physical experience but sometimes the mental experience is to much for a brain to handle and will shut off like a light switch. This is why its not recommended for the common folk to try. Not to say a common person couldnt learn, but to just do it on a whim might result in tragedy.

I use pain at least 6 times a year for marked ritual traveling. I dont think its pleasant but its ritual and with that in mind I get the results required to do my work.

First of all let me say this about that and the other. I do not claim to be any expert on the topic. I only know what i do and what I have always done. I dont have a teacher I never had a teacher. No Im not an American Indian medicine man. Nor am I saying what I do is right for you or your tribe or practice. I am just me saying what I know and why I know it.

When I was just a little girl of four years old I was taking a nap on the sofa with my twin brother something amazing happend. My brother and I went down to the basement to play ring around the rosey with our gobblin friends. When we were done we both jumped up off the sofa so hard it scared us. He asked me if I remembered the dream and I said yes and we promised never to tell anyone about it.

My brother stayed on his Christian path and now thinks those gobblin men were demons. I suppose to a Christian they would be. But to me they are just spirit people playing with those who can see them and not panic.

There are many names for spirit people and most of them are to be feared. Im not sure if the spirit walkers created this fear to help make themselves invaluable or if the church did it, either way it wasnt such a bad thing to do. You see, the spirit worlds are not much different than the real world when it comes to personalities. You have cheaters, murderers, tricksters, lovers, game players, pets, children, and all manor or beings.The only differences are is that the spirits have spiritual powers we know nothing about. The problem is not that we cant go to the spirit realm, but that we might get caught in there and not get out. Its like living in the country all your life and then getting tossed into the city not knowing where the gang territories are or how to catch a cab or find an address even. It is another world that has different rules to play by.
You might be asking, well how do you know how to play by them, right? Im still not sure I do. I go and have gone my whole life and still am confused by much of what I see or even why I see what I see.

I have read some about this topic and to be honest Im not sure if any 2 people see the same things the same way. Think about it. If I went to the grand canyon on the 12th April and you went to the grand canyon on the 20th of October We both would have been to the grand canyon. We also however would have seen things totally different. Even the colors would be different because of how the sun hit the rocks that time of year. So no two people will have the same thing to say about it.

How it all happens:

This is something Im also not totally sure about. Some people can make it happen with over induced meditation thats gone way out of whack. I have a friend who does this and it works for her. It doesnt work for me. What I do is just relax and the next thing I know Im there. It can happen anywhere any time but always has a reason. . I dont always have to be scientific about things and I dont always have to understand it either. Whats most important is that I remember what I see and hear when I get there. And remember how to get back!

To study of the spirits before I go seems to have its advantages. I can learn who might be a trickster and whos not. Although if they are tricking me how would I know they arent a trickster? Its like walking into the middle of a nightmare and if I screw up I can die and yet you dont want to leave because of its wonder. To bring back anything from this place is taking from it also. I have to remember to respect its place and its being as well as respect what lives there. Its frightening yes but fascinating as well.

the things Ive seen:

I have seen people and places I have heard hundreds of messages but by far the best, was the day I saw the isle of no return. I read somewhere that you arent supposed to swim the river. I broke that rule and I swam the river like I never swam anything before. First it was icy cold and it was trying to freeze me. Then it was flaming hot. I spoke to the river and I told it it cant hurt me because I am already hurt so bad it couldnt possibly hurt me more. Then it ripped my flesh from my bones. I kept swimming knowing that there was something I needed to see.
When my feet touched ground I stood waist deep in normal water looking at land. The name was like a whisper to me "Isle of no return". I stood there in spirit form staring at it. It was a wonderland and yet very ordinary in looks. It "felt" so extraordinary. I could breath it in.


It is not uncommon to have flesh be torn apart on any given trip. The trick is to know if they are doing it in their world or doing it in your world. You have all probably heard of people getting scratched or cut buy spirits. It happens a lot. This is where things get tricky for every one of us. Knowing what your spirit is feeling and knowing what your body back home is feeling and knowing the difference. It is THE most important thing to know. It is how you get back to the mundane. It is how you learn to protect yourself. It is how to know you are where you are when you are there.

I have not been the same since that trip. I can see people more clearly now. You know? Odin traded his sight for the knowledge of the runes. I can see why anyone might want the knowledge of the spirit world. But it comes at a cost. which I might talk about on a later date.