First of all let me say this about that and the other. I do not claim to be any expert on the topic. I only know what i do and what I have always done. I dont have a teacher I never had a teacher. No Im not an American Indian medicine man. Nor am I saying what I do is right for you or your tribe or practice. I am just me saying what I know and why I know it.

When I was just a little girl of four years old I was taking a nap on the sofa with my twin brother something amazing happend. My brother and I went down to the basement to play ring around the rosey with our gobblin friends. When we were done we both jumped up off the sofa so hard it scared us. He asked me if I remembered the dream and I said yes and we promised never to tell anyone about it.

My brother stayed on his Christian path and now thinks those gobblin men were demons. I suppose to a Christian they would be. But to me they are just spirit people playing with those who can see them and not panic.

There are many names for spirit people and most of them are to be feared. Im not sure if the spirit walkers created this fear to help make themselves invaluable or if the church did it, either way it wasnt such a bad thing to do. You see, the spirit worlds are not much different than the real world when it comes to personalities. You have cheaters, murderers, tricksters, lovers, game players, pets, children, and all manor or beings.The only differences are is that the spirits have spiritual powers we know nothing about. The problem is not that we cant go to the spirit realm, but that we might get caught in there and not get out. Its like living in the country all your life and then getting tossed into the city not knowing where the gang territories are or how to catch a cab or find an address even. It is another world that has different rules to play by.
You might be asking, well how do you know how to play by them, right? Im still not sure I do. I go and have gone my whole life and still am confused by much of what I see or even why I see what I see.

I have read some about this topic and to be honest Im not sure if any 2 people see the same things the same way. Think about it. If I went to the grand canyon on the 12th April and you went to the grand canyon on the 20th of October We both would have been to the grand canyon. We also however would have seen things totally different. Even the colors would be different because of how the sun hit the rocks that time of year. So no two people will have the same thing to say about it.

How it all happens:

This is something Im also not totally sure about. Some people can make it happen with over induced meditation thats gone way out of whack. I have a friend who does this and it works for her. It doesnt work for me. What I do is just relax and the next thing I know Im there. It can happen anywhere any time but always has a reason. . I dont always have to be scientific about things and I dont always have to understand it either. Whats most important is that I remember what I see and hear when I get there. And remember how to get back!

To study of the spirits before I go seems to have its advantages. I can learn who might be a trickster and whos not. Although if they are tricking me how would I know they arent a trickster? Its like walking into the middle of a nightmare and if I screw up I can die and yet you dont want to leave because of its wonder. To bring back anything from this place is taking from it also. I have to remember to respect its place and its being as well as respect what lives there. Its frightening yes but fascinating as well.

the things Ive seen:

I have seen people and places I have heard hundreds of messages but by far the best, was the day I saw the isle of no return. I read somewhere that you arent supposed to swim the river. I broke that rule and I swam the river like I never swam anything before. First it was icy cold and it was trying to freeze me. Then it was flaming hot. I spoke to the river and I told it it cant hurt me because I am already hurt so bad it couldnt possibly hurt me more. Then it ripped my flesh from my bones. I kept swimming knowing that there was something I needed to see.
When my feet touched ground I stood waist deep in normal water looking at land. The name was like a whisper to me "Isle of no return". I stood there in spirit form staring at it. It was a wonderland and yet very ordinary in looks. It "felt" so extraordinary. I could breath it in.


It is not uncommon to have flesh be torn apart on any given trip. The trick is to know if they are doing it in their world or doing it in your world. You have all probably heard of people getting scratched or cut buy spirits. It happens a lot. This is where things get tricky for every one of us. Knowing what your spirit is feeling and knowing what your body back home is feeling and knowing the difference. It is THE most important thing to know. It is how you get back to the mundane. It is how you learn to protect yourself. It is how to know you are where you are when you are there.

I have not been the same since that trip. I can see people more clearly now. You know? Odin traded his sight for the knowledge of the runes. I can see why anyone might want the knowledge of the spirit world. But it comes at a cost. which I might talk about on a later date.