ego

Ego: when I research the word, this is what I come up with, "self, importance of self, how the mind sees self in the world, the part of the personality that mediates between the alert mind and the mind that sleeps, the enduring and conscious element that knows experience".

With these definitions I can see how some have little ego and some have great egos. I can also see how some might have an over blown ego. Lets look at this from a scientific stand point in dealing with personality disorders and what we know about them.

Someone with low self esteem seems to have little ego because of self worth. Those with high self esteem, seem to have great ego which is considered to be healthy as long as it doesn't cause neglect to anyone or anything around them.

Someone who has low self esteem who is delusional in thinking they know more than they actually do, thinks this way as a survival skill. The balance is so far off, the pendulum has had to swing to counter act an event or series of events in a persons life to cause them to go into survival mode.

I cant help but somehow feel pity for these people as they wreak havoc on the earth. I feel worse for the people they tend to lash out at. These ego filled people are ruthless in their fight to maintain the ego that allows them to be strong and healthy in their minds. They don't see the damage they cause. They do not care about the damage. They only care about survival.

Looking at it this way, I can see that some of them kill. Some of them are abusers. Some are the know it all types who dismiss all others. Some are so filled with self, there is no room for anyone else in their lives. Some attack anyone within arms length of presenting the truth to them. They do harm others on a regular basis. I see it every day. The only way I can see to balance my own ego against them, is to ignore them. For every time they say how important they are, I live my life as if to say they mean nothing. If I am attacked personally and the law is broken, I can only rise above and let the law handle it. These people are like vampires. They take and take trying to fix their own self worth. Their ego will not allow them to admit they have something wrong in them. They cut us down to make themselves look bigger and better than they feel. They can be seemingly evil people.

Sometimes the best way to fight fire is with water, not fire. It is also hard to not catch on fire yourself when someone is flaming you. Be wise, not ego filled.