punishment for the guilty

I belong to a popular social site and someone posted a link about pedophiles being caught all around the world. Most of the comments were about torturing these indecent people for their misdeeds. I must admit, it does sound like the right thing to do after so many children have suffered so much. But then I think on how I really feel. I stand alone on this topic I am sure.

I have been tortured, held captive against my will, and sexually abused by a sadist. I wished him death. My ex has done vile things and I wished him death also. People who know me have wanted to follow through with those wishes. I personally cant live with the idea that I would take a life or be the cause of taking a life. That's not to say I wouldn't kill someone if I absolutely had to, but revenge just isn't in me.

I have pulled myself up from the depths of hell to live a life I can be proud of. Living my life to the fullest is better than the death penalty for my attackers. Being public about what I have lived through and proving that I am not as messed up as they wanted me to be and gives me far more delight! Frankly all I have to say is HA! ya mofos! look at us now. One of them is in jail and the other is suffering from a form of Alzheimer disease and is partially crippled. I am starting school and maybe a career. I have friends and family. who got the better end of the deal here eh?

I know that not all people are like me and can't pull themselves through what has been done to them. I had a friend in Alabama who committed suicide because he couldn't recover from his mental instability caused by sexual abuse. In which case I believe the courts should hold his abuser accountable for what has happened. To me it is a negligent manslaughter charge if ever I saw one. The courts don't see it that way though. Life for life is what it should be.

I don't know what causes adults to offend children the way they do. I don't know why there are so many adults who do it. What I do know is that given the right circumstances, a child can recover and when that happens I say "Karma is a bitch, and she ain't sleeping!"